I find my self here today to say good-bye to the blog world, or maybe it’s a “see you later….” My heart is heavy as I type because this has been an awesome template for my thoughts and my beliefs, the things that I love the most, and most importantly my faith walk. I am just at the point where it’s time to take a step back from here and maybe put my energy, efforts, and thoughts into something new. I have no idea what that is or if it will ever make it’s way to the surface, but I’m not questioning the timing….
I wrote here for the first time on July 29, 2012 and really had no intentions of it being the mental therapy that it’s been. I’ve written with passion and with enthusiasm about subjects that I felt were the closest to my heart. I’ve shared a lot and I’ve made great strides in my faith and for that sole purpose this was not a waste of time, but a great stepping stone into many things in my life. I’m proud of each word I’ve ever expressed here and just like every other moment in my life I have no regrets. Growth, for me, is not always visible to others, but I certainly carry that feeling of accomplishment from within. That’s what this empty canvas has done for me… It’s made me better on the inside.
A few weeks ago someone called me out and the words have been stuck in my mind and heart since that moment…. I was told that maybe I needed to quit with the blog because that’s not who I am and that I was fake. Harsh words, said in the heat of the moment perhaps, but aren’t those moments the ones we remember the fondest? I thought about that word over and over…. F-A-K-E. I realized that perhaps I had become fake and that maybe I was not this Super Duper Christian that maybe I was portraying myself as. Then I realized that I wasn’t fake at all, I was just human. I am indeed a sinner on many different levels and I am not in any way ashamed of that. I kept thinking over and over that I knew that God hates the sin, but loves the sinner…. At the end of the day I don’t think I’ve ever been that Super Duper Christian, but I’ve been real, and for that I make no apologies. I love you for your criticism….
Over the past 30 days I’ve been reading Proverbs…. I recommend it; it’s a great addition to your daily bible reading, it’s simple, and full of great reminders. It’s where I found my favorite verse in the bible, a verse that I’ve carried with my since I started writing here.
As iron sharpens iron so one man sharpens another.
The list of “iron” that has sharpened me is a long one…. From Revolution 365 I’ve done things that I never imagined doing….
– I accepted God into my life for the first real time
– I walked through several things with Tyler (my son)
– I had a great baptism experience at my church
– I’ve read through the bible 5 times now
– I can pray now, without thinking I must be crazy
– My relationship with Lauren (my daughter) is stronger than ever
– Through my faith I was able to reach out to people that I never knew were there
– My faith has been the shining moment of my mom’s battles with her illnesses
One last thing, before I go…. When you write something that just about anyone can get their hands on you have that fear that maybe no one will ever see it, at least I do/did. I know I’ve reached a few people because they’ve told me so. For me, that’s the payoff…. If it’s effected just one person then it was worth the effort. Ive reached out everywhere in the process. Here, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, email, etc. I will say this though, one person always made sure they “liked” it, I mean like every single time. Every blog, every picture, every thought, every verse, every everything. For that I say thank you. I also say CARPE DIEM, my friend!
See ya later Friends….